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Life can be good if you let it be

Over the weekend, my Hubster and I went to a friend’s wedding. We left the girls with his family. We drove up and up to the top of a winery at the edge of the city. The view was gorgeous. It made for the perfect setting for an evening wedding. Lights were twinkling everywhere. The lights strung above the dance floor. The lights of the city below.

My Hubster and I were without our phones. I left mine in the car because I had forgotten a purse to bring to the wedding. My Hubster had to turn his off to save the smidge of charge that was left, so we could navigate our way home.

It was so lovely to not have our phones. We could be completely in the moment. We weren’t taking pictures of everything. We weren’t checking to see if we got any calls or texts about the girls. We weren’t looking at pictures of the girls.

Instead, we laughed with each other. We spent time remembering our wedding day. Thinking how much has changed since seven years ago. Thankfully, there have been so many good things.

I don’t have any pictures of us, our friends or the sweet couple. I will remember the way my Hubster smiled at me and put his arm around me as we watched the couple dance their first dance. I will remember the sound of my Hubster laughing with one of his closest friends from high school. I will remember how happy the newlyweds looked all evening. Of course, I will remember the glow of all of those twinkling lights.

I love that our Bigs knows that I love to read. I have a book bin by my side of the bed. It mostly has her books in it, but I do have one of my own in it right now. She points at it and says “Mommy book.” She does that whenever she sees any of my books around the house. Love my little reader!

I have always been seeking shelter from others. When I was little, I looked for it from my parents. Throughout high school and college, I always had my husband. I never imagined that I would be strong enough to be someone else’s shelter.

One day we were having lunch at a gorgeous restaurant by the beach. Between the restaurant and the beach are train tracks. The big girl and I were playing in the sand pit. Suddenly, we heard a train speed by. While I watched the train go by, I felt my big girl throw herself onto me with all of her might as she threw her arms around my neck and buried her face into my shoulder.

At that moment, I finally realized that I am her shelter. I was her first home as she grew in my belly. I am her source of comfort and unconditional love. I have to remind myself that I am strong enough to be her shelter.

I love watching the Bigs try to blow bubbles. She just keeps trying. She doesn’t care that most of the time there aren’t any bubbles. She just smiles and keeps going. I love the pure joy that’s on her face while she’s learning something new.

I love watching the Bigs try to blow bubbles. She just keeps trying. She doesn’t care that most of the time there aren’t any bubbles. She just smiles and keeps going. I love the pure joy that’s on her face while she’s learning something new.

This quotation gets me through the day when the girls are extra fiery. I have to remember that it’s a good thing that the girls know exactly what they want and are determined to get it. They will be our strong-willed girls.

This quotation gets me through the day when the girls are extra fiery. I have to remember that it’s a good thing that the girls know exactly what they want and are determined to get it. They will be our strong-willed girls.

Totally loving this book. It’s a very sweet and easy read.

Totally loving this book. It’s a very sweet and easy read.

For some reason, random kiddos love to talk to me. I think they can tell that I’m a teacher from a mile away. It’s become even easier for them to talk to me because they use my littles as a conversation starter.

Here is one of the more funny conversations.

(Brother brings sister over to our table.)

B: Look at the baby! I brought her over because she loves babies.
S: (tries to touch baby)
B: No, you can’t touch the baby. It’s sleeping.
Me: (smiles) He’s right.
S: Why is the baby wearing pajamas?
B: Because babies don’t like to be cold. It’s like how you don’t like to take off your socks. See, feel the breeze. It’s blowing wind.

It was extra sweet because the kiddos were around 5 and 6.

We’ll be celebrating our seven year wedding anniversary in a couple of days. (We’ve really been together a grand total of sixteen years.) 

He is my best friend in the entire world, the love of my life, and the best dad to our sweet girls. 

Whether or not he believes it, he’s been saying a lot of the right things lately. He calms my busy mind. He makes me laugh when I feel too tired to laugh. He reminds me how beautiful our life really is. He loves me unconditionally. For all those reasons, I am beyond fortunate.

We’ll be celebrating our seven year wedding anniversary in a couple of days. (We’ve really been together a grand total of sixteen years.)

He is my best friend in the entire world, the love of my life, and the best dad to our sweet girls.

Whether or not he believes it, he’s been saying a lot of the right things lately. He calms my busy mind. He makes me laugh when I feel too tired to laugh. He reminds me how beautiful our life really is. He loves me unconditionally. For all those reasons, I am beyond fortunate.